| Thursday, September 15th, 2005 |
| 8:48 am |
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| Wednesday, September 14th, 2005 |
| 11:12 am |
i think im sick and im soooo bbboooorrreeeddd at work. really i am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood:  bored out of my mind |
| Tuesday, September 13th, 2005 |
| 8:57 am |
1 week and 1 day left till surgery. Current Mood:  i feel like shit today |
| Friday, September 9th, 2005 |
| 10:02 am |
it's getting closer
1 week and 5 days until i get my surgery. I cant believe it is so close. I just hope that i'll be able to do the things i use to do before and not have any problems. I hope that i can have babies the natural way and a whole bunch of other things. i dunno we'll see. |
| Friday, August 19th, 2005 |
| 9:12 am |
hey i'm hea bored at work thinking about how can i make enough money to move out of the house and get my own and about the surgery too. A couple of weeks ago i ended breaking down for the first time about the surgery. I called my boyfriend asking him if he would still be with me even if i was to get paralized. of course de said yes that that wouldnt matter to him cuz he loves me. just thinking about how they are gonna open me and put those metal rods in me makes me scares at times because i'll be a walking target for lightining. lol. with a only a month left to go it is going by fast. they keeping on taking blood out of my arm and like 3-5 containers at a time. my legs are becoming more affected my back with each day passing. at times it is difficult for me to even walk from the pain that i have on my legs, feet and back as well. i'm becoming more tired and having trouble sleeping and if i do get sleep in i still wake up tired. i dont know what is wrong. my vision is acting funny again that at times it seems like i'm going to go blind. it did happen once for like 30sec to a minute and it was so scary. but whenever i go to the doctors to get checked out they say that everything is fine and that i am perfectly normal. i really dont know what is gonna happen but i guess i have to wait and hope for the best. Current Mood:  life after surgery? |
| Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005 |
| 11:52 pm |
hey
hey everyone!!! sry i havent been on just that a lot of things have been happening to me lately and all at one time. I finally graduated from high school and got a car as my gift. I found a new job for nothing cuz i ended up quiting in less than a month. Things with my man were going wonderful until yesterday. Started to go to college during the summer so i can hurry up and get out of there. I left my grandmother's house for about almost two months and now im back [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<she's>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] hey everyone!!! sry i havent been on just that a lot of things have been happening to me lately and all at one time.
I finally graduated from high school and got a car as my gift.
I found a new job for nothing cuz i ended up quiting in less than a month.
Things with my man were going wonderful until yesterday.
Started to go to college during the summer so i can hurry up and get out of there.
I left my grandmother's house for about almost two months and now im back <she's not fighting now>
I lost $1600 thanx to my family and the scholarship
Other than that things were perfect and i couldnt ask for anything more. stupid boyfriend is really stupid. sorry i know that i dont make any sense right about now but just deal with me i have so many pent up emotions that i just dont know what i am going to do with them.
oh do you guys want to hear what happen to me on friday july 29?
well as some of you may know i dont go out very often. well this night i decided to go out to firestone<it was latin night>. First of all it's about 9 something at night and i'm here thinking you know what the fuck i hardly ever go out so let's go. I ended up fighting with my man cuz he didnt want me to go then he gave up and was like go. Then i called my grandmother to see if she'll let me go then she said yes eventhough i know that she didnt want me to. like at 10pm my man tells me that he's hungry and that he wants me to take him out to eat so i did. as we're parked in the parking lot he start to make me feel bad when he starts to say see you never make plans with me to go out but you can make plans with everyone else. we get back and his sister still hasnt taken a shower to leave. mind you that it is like 10:35 and she takes like 2 hours to get ready while i only take abour 30mins to an hour tops. so she ends up coming to my house to take a shower then she leaves back to her house. I hop in the shower and get ready in about 20min. it's almost hitting 11:30 and we finally leave. we get to firestone and being cheap we park by screamers. so we walk about a good seven blocks or more to get back to firestone and wait in that big ass line for about 30 to 40 mins. when we get inside it's about 1:15. whatever we leave when the club closes and walk our happy asses all the way back to the cars and by this time my feet are screaming to sit down. Well we walk all the way back and the cars well guess what...they werent there!!!!! i was about to cry like a little girl only thinking about what my mom would do to me when i get home without the car and all my information was in the car. i wanted to cry so bad. One of my sister in laws called the cops to tell them the cars and they told her they were towed. mind you yet we are on orange and jefferson and the cars were in BFE south OBT and 29th street. we had to call someone to come and give us a ride. it was embarrasing to sit there in the corner and watch all the cars go by honking at us. well the towing place closes at 4 in the mornig and we were still in downtown and it was 3 something in the morning i was constantly was calling the guyto make sure that he wasnt gonna close the place and i even made him laugh at the fact that my mom would beat me ass if i didnt come home with the car. well we finally get to the place and i had to run around again to find an atm to get $100 dollars out to get the car out mind you yet that i got paid that day only 98.40 for working since the first of july. but i got the car and finally got home at 530 in the morning. i was pissed. there are more details but my show is on and i'm going to let you guys go. till next time. |
| Sunday, May 15th, 2005 |
| 6:14 pm |
GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate working on sundays i swear!!!!!!!!!!! I mean it's not bad but ryan just ruins everything!!!! then cooper is always on my ass too...damn give me a break! im not there have the time so why give me a hard time? sry i cant type all that great with the nails on...so dont mind the typos. but yeah then after ive worked so hard to earn the money to go to cancun i cant go cuz of school... then my grandmother thinks im some kind of hoe cuz i was going with my boyfriend of @(2yr & 5 months on the 17). Hello!!!!!!!!!! if i'm havng ssex i dont have to go to mexico to do it...damn what the fuck. then she ruinedd my prom. oh and she says that she cant trust me cuz of all the things that i have done. you wanna know what she is talking about....me going to cancun and forging her signature. oh well it's not her own kids never did it. any ways i gotta go i'll be back soon hopefully..... Current Mood:  there are no words |
| Monday, January 17th, 2005 |
| 11:05 pm |
Ok i'm dumb
I can't figure out how to add freaking people to the damn journal or how i get back in to 2270...lol...but it's okay cuz it's me! oh then i have the senior project to do and no time to do it. I wish at times that i can just freeze the world and do what i gotta do. the first part of the paper is due on wednesday and i have nothing written down to show the guy. you're suppose to have 3 sources and i only have 1 so what is a girl to do when she has other things to worry about like how much mone is going to be rolling in so i can get the things i need for the present as well as the future. well i cant blame no one else but me. and i suck at typing i really truely do and spelling...oh well. I might as well move into winn-dixie...and make a room in the back. I'll never have to go grocery shopping that's for sure. Current Mood:  frustrated |
| Saturday, December 18th, 2004 |
| 12:45 am |
wow
well when i came on the computer it was dec 17 so that means i have been with my boyfriend for two years. we've been through so much shit in this years that it's so amazing! and it's two years later and i still feel like i still dont know him completely.... like he still doesnt know me completely yet either. what can i say...i love my baby. Damn i really wanted us to take a picture today and i didnt do it. maybe tomorrow i will. i wish that i could get paid more at winn dixie...i mean not like 7ph but the 18yrs starting pay...6 something...you know i mean me and another person started at the same time and this was that person's first job and just because that person is 18 they get paid more...even though this is my second job and i have experience as a cashier and i get only 5.70....i do have things to pay and money to save for my car and an appartment or something to get the hell out of here....but anyways i love my baby and i hope that things will work out for the best for us and all the little bullshit can stop. but i gotta go cuz once again my gma is saying something to me. HE LOVES ME!!!!!!!!!....(so he says)lol...he DOES Current Mood:  loved and idk |
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